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Those Days When…

Posted: January 28, 2013 in Uncategorized
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I feel like I want to stuff myself into my closet and cry. I want to be alone and let all the sadness that has built up in my chest out. As you can tell, yes, it’s one of those days. Those days where you were expecting something and did not get close to that at all.

Now I’m reading depressing song lyrics, listening to depressing songs, and listening to the sound of the rain falling outside alongside the tears that are locked up in me. I want to let everything out and forget, but I know that it’s impossible. It’s impossible for me to ever let go of this feeling until something else throws it out and replaces it. I try so hard to be as perfect as I can be, but it’s never enough.

You see, I’m not at all like most girls. I don’t wear make up, I don’t really dress up all fancy when I go outside even though I do enjoy dressing up sometimes, I don’t read sappy love stories, and I don’t like One Direction. While all the girls I know are  raving about Les Miserables, I’m listening and hoping that no one cares if I saw it. I don’t seem to fit in; and that hurts.

But like every other girl, I do want to be accepted. I want the guy I like to like me back, but it isn’t going too well. Honestly, it sucks. It sucks so badly that I want to cry just thinking about it. You see, I’m not the only one who likes him. There are at least two other girls who do; and they are so much prettier than I am. If he were to chose, I’m not even sure if he would look at me for at least a second. On top of that, they flirt with him all the time, therefore making it difficult for me to even talk to him. And he knows that I like him because someone told him that I did. Ugh. I’m sorry to burden you with my problems, but it must be done. I can no longer hide this pain in my chest.

It hurts. It sucks. It stops my world even if he doesn’t know that.

So I guess it’s time for me to get into that closet. Until then…

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I am not a psycho.

Posted: January 11, 2013 in Uncategorized
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Well hello random person who I probably don’t know! (Well, if I know you, sorry, I should be nicer. Hello to you.) If you are reading this (which you obviously are doing. I’m such a great stalker, right?!) you are probably wondering why I even put this down. Frankly, I don’t know. I guess it’s because I feel the need to post this. Sorry if I’m rubbing off as annoying. I just wanted to welcome you to my blog. If you are going to keep reading my blog, please note that I might make a few people mad.

Things you need to know about me: I’m a writer, I love reading, I like to draw, I love my guitar Austin, I am in love with skateboarding, I am homeschooled, and I am weird to the point that I call myself awesome. Is that too egotistic? (yes.)

So yes. Nice to meet you too!

How do you like my hat? 

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Just saying, I do not take many pictures of myself all the time, but I thought this one turned out nice, don’t you agree?

And as for the title, it is true.